“I’m just simply a chill guy with a hobby of lying on the bed or sofa and looking at the ceiling like Kim Ji-won.” – Eru smiled
Eru is someone who embraces simplicity and minimalism. He avoids anything excessive or complicated. His lifestyle and personal space reflect this mindset. Everything in his room is neatly organized with a clear place and purpose. For Eru, keeping things tidy isn’t just a habit, it’s a way to keep his mind calm and focused.
Eru really likes drinking iced Coffee Latte — some might even say he’s a little hooked on it. Every morning, before getting to work, he makes himself a perfectly chilled Coffee Latte. It’s not too sweet, not too strong, just the way he likes it. He believes it helps him focus better than anything else. As he often says, “Without an iced Coffee Latte, I feel like my brain doesn’t have a power switch.”
“Overthinking is a gift from God if you know how to control it – but when you cannot do it, there will be a lot of consequences. And doctor…just simply diagnose you are a patient with anxiety disorder.”
1. “Simplicity is the ultimate sotiphiscation” – Leonardo da Vince
2. “Annihilating Is Easy. Trying to Fix What’s Broken Is Hard. Hope is hard” – Loki
3. “Happy children use their childhood to embrace their whole life. The unhappy child spends his whole life to heal childhood.”
4. “Some people get a paper cut and want the whole world to know. Others carry storms in their hearts and remain silent.”
5. “I’m not unhappy but I’m not happy either. I would’t care if the word ended now” – Mi Jeong
6. “Discipline is power”
To Eru, this song feels like a quiet promise whispered in winter. The song doesn’t shout. It lingers — soft, aching, and inevitable. He doesn’t understand every word, but he doesn’t need to. The melody carries a sadness that feels familiar, like something he’s lived through but can’t fully remember.
The way the singer delivers each line: gentle, restrained, almost like holding back tears and remind Eru of moments he no longer clearly recalls, but still feels. The lyrics speak of waiting, of love that comes quietly and leaves without sound, like snow melting on your palm. And that’s what stays with him.
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It happened late one evening. The streets were slick with rain, and Eru, riding home alone, didn’t see the car pulling out of the side alley until it was too late. The collision threw him from the bike. His head hit the pavement hard, even with a helmet on. That impact changed everything.
From that moment on, his memory began to fade. Not all at once, but little by little. At first, it was just forgetting names or where he placed things. Then entire conversations, faces, even parts of his childhood started slipping away. It was as if his mind was slowly erasing pieces of the puzzle that made him who he was.
This gradual memory loss didn’t just affect his thinking. It reshaped how he lived. Simplicity became a necessity, not just a preference. The fewer things he had to remember, the more control he felt. Neatness gave him stability. Every object had a place. Every routine had a purpose. His daily iced Coffee Latte became a kind of anchor. A familiar taste that reminded him, even briefly, that he was still here. Still functioning.
Eru still don’t know what disease does he really have?
He knows something changed after the accident. His memory loss isn’t normal forgetfulness. It’s like certain things just disappear — entire days, names, even emotions. But no doctor has been able to give him a clear diagnosis. Some call it post-traumatic amnesia, others suggest it could be early-onset neurodegeneration, or even functional neurological disorder. But none of it feels right. None of it explains him.
And maybe that’s what makes it worse.
Not knowing.
Not having a name for what?
Sometimes he wonders: What if it’s not a disease at all?
What if his brain is just trying to forget something too painful to hold on to?
