“I don’t know. It feels like… like you don’t remember what better feels like and then you do things that you think will make you feel better but they don’t. They make it worse. And the things that I’m really scared of doing are probably the things that will help me the most, but I just can’t do them.“
Depression is not always visible. Sometimes, it does not even look like sadness. It just feels like you are no longer there. It is like having a mental cancer.
When Nothing Feels Like Anything Anymore
Depression often begins as a slow fading, not of memories, but of meaning. You wake up, but you feel distant from your own life. Everything you do feels automatic, as if you are moving through a loop that cannot be paused. People laugh, plans continue, and the world moves forward. But you feel frozen in place.
It is not because you are lazy. It is not because you are weak. It is because something inside you has gone quiet, and you no longer know how to bring it back.
You Are Not Alone, Even If It Feels That Way
Depression tells many lies. It convinces you that no one understands. That you are either too much or not enough. That the people around you are too busy to notice, or that you would only be a burden if you spoke up. But here is the truth: You are never truly alone in this. There are people who care. People who have felt what you are feeling, and who have found their way through it. Sometimes, the bravest thing you can do is to say something out loud.
Depression does not only live in the mind. It often settles in the body too. You may feel constantly tired, even after resting. Your chest may feel heavy, your muscles sore, your appetite off. You may feel restless at night, and disconnected during the day. This is your body trying to say what your heart cannot.
The Smile That Hides Everything
Dakota once said, “Sometimes, you keep laughing because it’s easier than explaining.” Many people with depression smile every day. They are the ones who check in on others, who meet deadlines, who show up. And no one suspects they are struggling — because they hide it so well. But pretending to be okay is exhausting. Every laugh, every “I’m fine” feels like another stone added to an already heavy load.
You Don’t Have to Be Broken to Ask for Help
Many people believe that unless things are truly terrible, they should not ask for help. However, you do not need to reach the lowest point to deserve support. If you feel lost, if you feel numb, or if you feel like a faded version of the person you once were, that is reason enough. You matter long before anything falls apart. And the sooner you speak up, the sooner healing can begin.
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